Milestones

Toby rolled over from his front to his back the other day. And it struck me... how quickly these things go. Just a few months ago he was a sleeping eating little creature that was trying to figure out all the small things. To the curious little guy that he is now. When we eat dinner he tries to grab at my plate, my fork, my cup anything he can get his hands on. He wants to grab and feel and see EVERYTHING! He has started this new thing when he's in the bath. He sticks his foot as high up in the air as his little body will let him and waits for me to pour water over his foot. He will leave it in the air until I pour water over it and then he just stares at the water as it covers his foot. He cries when he's tired, he cries when he's hungry, and he cries when he thinks that maybe I forgot about him laying on his mat playing. He's got so many cute things going on right now that when it's 3 in the morning, I haven't slept for longer that 45 minute stretches because he's struggling with the sleep thing and all I want is to crawl into bed, throw the covers over my head, and sleep for about 5 hours (I would kill for 5 straight hours of sleep, this coming from a woman who used to need like 11 hours of sleep a night). Then I remember that soon he'll be asking to go ride his trike around the driveway, or wanting a ice cream bar, and my little boy will grow up to be a man before I know it. I look at Griff and I look at Toby, as I stand next to my husband, and I realize that this... this thing we call family is really the core foundation to life, to everything. That without this solid foundation in our lives, everything else becomes so much more difficult. I only wish that everyone could have a family full of love and support, and commitment to each other that I share in my family. Life is not just about what I want to do on the weekend anymore, it's not about things that a while back seemed so important... now I look at the needs of Griff and the needs of Toby and those matter so much more because I know they depend on me. Just like I depended on my parents.